Read My New Baclofen Diary

I've just discovered that my bag has been stolen. There were lots of important things in there but, worst of all, my Baclofen was in there too.

Last year, inadvertently I ran out of Baclofen but had no reason to concern myself unduly. How wrong I was. It was awful. Armageddon as I refer to it within the Baclofen section of the B₄a site. Other visitors refer to it as 'The Horrors'. A much better description than mine. Avoid it at all costs, my friends.

I immediately ordered a new supply though the In-House Pharmacy, but I knew that would take 10 days or so to arrive. Therefore, I arranged an urgen consultation with my General Practitioner. I felt sure that he would help in the circumstances. How wrong could I be. A total abject refusal to give me even a very short term supply to tied me over.

IMPORTANT!!!!

Nobody has ever become addicted or dependant on Baclofen.

Nobody has ever suffered much more than a long sleep after an overdose of Baclofen.

If you're coming off Baclofen, you should do so gradually. If I had, I would have had no problems whatosever.

I would NOT be craving it after I stopped it.

If you're starting Baclofen, start it slowly and gradually build up the dose.

Baclofen is an incredibly safe, tried and tested medicine. You do NOT need to be afraid of it at all.

Knowing this helped me through what was to come. It made me feel safer.

But, given the circumstances, this is the opposite of what happened to me.

This is what happened next, day by day.

Day 1

Just got back from GP's. Already feeling very jittery and anxious. Got terrible headache, and am sweating.

Day 2

Horrible night. The bed is sodden with sweat. Getting some alcohol cravings for the first time in ages. My left arm feels stiff and heavy. Another terrible right sided headache. I feel scared and panicky.

Day 3

I'm beginning to feel that the wheels are coming off. Last night I had awful nightmares. Vivid, scary and very real. Bed soaked again. I am desperate to get my Baclofen supply again, but it could be another week. With weekend coming up, I'm not in a good place. Totally different from when I was on Baclofen.

Day 4

The worst Saturday of my life. I'm feeling incredibly low and dark. Not like me at all. The sense of panic and anxiety is overpowering. I just want to be by myself in a dark room. Every noise makes me jump out of my skin. I'm sweating like a pig, and feel very nauseated. I casn barely hold a cup to drink. In fact, I'm having to have all drinks with a drinking straw in it. I cannot get a cup to my lips without spilling it everywhere. I'm going to have an early night. this is awful.

Day 5

Another shocking night, with nightmares. I've had to change the bedding. It was wet through. Both my arms are stiff now, and my legs feel like they might buckle from under me. I'm going to try and have a quiet day. This is horrendous.

Day 6

Armageddon.

All through last night I had genuine suicidal thoughts. I have absolutely no history of mental illness. I have never been on any medication (benzo's, antidepressants etc). I'm one of the most 'glass half full' optimists you could ever find. I had voices in my head telling me how worthless I am and that I should be put out of my misery. I also had some very strange tastes and smells. Like rotting flesh.

I am absolutely shit scared that I might do something to myself, even though I have enough objectivity to know that this is not remotely what I am like or what I feel. I totally know that this is wrong, and that I must resist it.

I'm going back to my GP today, whether he likes it or not. I'm not going to die just because he's too stuck in his ways to see the bleeding obvious.

I went to my GP. The remainder of the story is continued on my new daily Baclofen Diary / Blog.